It was just a fun conversation.
Then, a fun argument
Finally, it was ended by a disappointment…
I always have been such a dreamer…
I dream big…

It is definitely very unpleasant for me to hear from my own mother how she does not want to support my dream…at some point, she made me feel very unsupportive, disappointed, and distanced…

For the first time of my life, I did not want to be home; I was disappointed…

And for the first time, I have never felt so empty…I am so angry inside that I cannot stop crying…I am angry because you were the one who financially supported me…I am angry.. I can’t say what I want bc I’m afraid hurting you…I am angry because I am not who you wanted me to be…I am angry because you said you were disappointed…

It’s sad not being supported by certain people that mean the world to us. Look at the bright side, it might be a great opportunity to show them that life is always so uncertain, things change, so do the people and it is a matter of taking risks…at the end, you are the only one who gets to decide where you wanna go in life…

Mother, this time, I won’t call you Mum…because for once, I thought you were not deserved to be called like that…

I love you still…but we have made our points…we are just two different people with different expectation and different goals… You want me to be happy by forcing me to be a place I don’t call happiness…

Andie N.